I've been avoiding work. I'm not just behind in my grading like I thought, but I really have been avoiding work and I don't know why (and that bugs me). This reminds me of the times when I almost quit college, and I'm (oh so conveniently) having trouble remembering exactly how I got through it. I went to college because, like a lot of other people, I didn't have any other ideas as to what to do next, and that didn't work. It wasn't until I actually considered what was going on and really thought about it that I decided to finish college and get it done.
But though I still think I love my job, I feel a tad like it's running away, and I'm running away from it. Literally speaking, I did settle on teaching as a career. I don't do very well when I settle, I sabotage myself very well with it. I just want to sleep and watch tv and have someone hold me and make it all better.
I have to go or I'll be late for work. I want to call in sick, but I'll be in a lot of trouble if I do, and my kids will probably bomb their midterms.