But he wasn-t there - because he's never there - and that was the message.
I love him so much but he's not there right now and hasn't really ever been since we broke up the first time.
I just need to be patient - which means I need a distraction. I think I might actually be able to ask people out now - knowing that I can't have Marc so I might as well get a nice piece of ass.
I took a personal day from school. I needed more sleep and didn't do my homework anyway. Maybe if I actually find a date I'll be happy enough to pass my classes.