grumblefuckmutter, gaming in the wedge.
grumblefuckmutter, just like it always was.
grumblefuckmutter, locked out of the library,
grumblefuckmutter, played risk anyway.
grumblefuckmutter, surrounded by cute people,
grumblefuckmutter, hafta wait a whole week to see mah beau.
I assumed that people would understand what I meant to say, and not what I actually said. I honestly did not expect anyone to be upset by my SFS post. I need to remember that I am writing to myself here, so I need to be open and clear and honest. Hopefully people will understand that.
When I look at the direction I'd want the SFS to go, and where it is now, it makes me sad. It upsets me that something I've poured my energy and creativity into is declining, and I don't know how to help it. When I was an officer, I did everything that was asked of me, but that doesn't mean I was doing my job. Just last night we ran into a guy who had no idea the SFS even existed, and I didn't even think to get him to come to a meeting, and that's what I see as wrong. We have stopped trying to promote growth, activity, and change.
This is a problem I've been thinking about for months, but I need to take my own advice. I need to learn to go to other people for help sooner, after all, this is about more than me. How did we get here? How do we get out of this?