On the other side of the coin is the possibility that sooner or later my line of bull will fail in school. And what will happen to me then? Will I fail my projects and have to start anew with funds I don't have? Will my grades plummet and such action be threattened with the chance to redeem myself? Will I be capable of doing so?
I feel like an Astronaut on an expedition to the sun, meeting failure of one kind or another regardless of success. Or is that the point?